songs of an idle saturday when i ponder what the hell im gonna even do monday because i'm still not in the rhythm of a routine yet...
2/7/2026
To start off with, I'll say that I built a new websites from the scraps of an older one. It's called Maid-Online, and it's a bit confused in its identity as of now. It's based on Virgo from Fairy Tail as a maid and the idea is that I'll be larping as her and probably other maids with their own sections. But Virgo was my first love in the genre of battlemaids, so Virgo it is. I plan to test the waters using Tohru at some point, and perhaps even expand more? Who knows.
The website itself uses a CRT-lite aesthetic, so I'm definitely losing points for accessibility there. I want to do a lot with it, and it definitely has a lot of potential! But oh, I wasn't made for roleplaying as canon characters, let me tell you. Like the blog homepage says, though, I want to be okay doing things that are uncomfortable for me, and this is like bar zero.
Second on the list, I started uni! I won't get into any details, it's not very exciting. I'm friendless for a few different reasons as of now, the main one being a commuter in a sea of on-campus students and also not using our union/food court. I'm a library lurker and lowkey have had some of the best coffee in there AND worked on some new material, so I'm okay with the trade-offs for now. If you wanted to know more, you can see blog #4, Happy February. It sounds like someone is holding me at gunpoint to say I'm having fun some times, but I promise it's chill for me.
Someone recently caught me complaining about my life and told me that I don't know how good I have it. I hope I can know what they feel, too, so that I can know. A lot of my past regrets keep me up recently, doing all these things, and I set out to right them. I think that's the only reason I'm fine being this loner character, because nothing can hurt me now. Instead, since I'm out of the swamp, I can see past the reeds and see the still reflections of the cypress. Something that says I'm still in it, wading through this sludge, but that nothing can hurt me that I can't already see coming.
Third and probably last... I've been getting into more fandom culture again so I can kind of warm up to the idea of writing fanfics. I've been playing with the idea of helping my goat Bandana Guy from No, I'm Not A Human get some more community posts by dropping something with him as a feature. I just know it'll flop though, someone did a subreddit poll for favorite characters and I was ONE of TWO (!!) who said he was in my top 3 faves... But all he needs is a competent writer (me) who also knows how to put in touches of gothic work into him, I think? I think.... I know he's no Bar Guy, so good luck to me I guess.
It's kind of the genius of the game, in another sense. Someone like him would usually be babied or altered by the fandom into a kind of tumblr-fication in an ordinary game. But he's not an attractive person, and he shows so much doubt in himself and presents with these ultra submissive traits while wanting to be powerful. I have so much to work with because he's in line with what I can relate to (although much, much more on his side, he's not like me at all).
I think my next steps will be something like finding out how the hell people get Neocities sites more in the eye of the public? Not in like a 'I need validation' way, but more so that it doesn't feel like a ghost town on Neocities..? Unless the age is a factor and my site is suspicious for being a 2022 account that just randomly got back active? I think daily updates will help me and being more kind of image-friendly and put some interesting resources or so on it, but I have no idea. This site is all I need, in the end, and I'm more than happy to let M-O be it's own side-project while I figure out what to do.