2/27/2026
I'm just gonna write and see what comes out, I think that's good.
I love the way everything in the world can be traced back to a shape or a color or abstract. Once you see it, it's like one of the things you can't get rid of. Unfortunately I learned it at a young age, which led to me full ugly sobbing over Milo and Otis of all things... They had babies.... my tiny mind was so happy for them I just cried about it. I don't think I ever lost that, what it evolved to was living somatically, if that makes sense. I get these deep daydreams where I can't tell what's real in the moment but logically I know what exists. All my problems had to be strongarmed by logic, I think that's the only reason I'm stable. Otherwise I'd be the most ecclectic eccentric you ever met and you'd be so scared of me... I'd probably develop some disorder and be nothing like I know I am.
When I was younger I was deep into daydreaming to the point I would supplement reality with imaginary people. I knew all their names and would speak to myself and play like imaginary friends. They weren't actually imaginary friends, though, because the scale I had it was insane. These years, I developed my writing method that I'd use for the rest of my life. It's really good to be able to tap into that mindset as an adult because it means I have an industry secret now. "How do you do it?" "Ah, you'd just have to be me, apologies."
Another thing I could talk about is my voice. I don't and actively try not to read back anything I wrote, so I don't know what I sound like. People call it interesting, even my irl voice, too, and call me interesting and unique as a result. What is it about me? I don't even care about maintaining it, I just speak as I would speak and type naturally, flexing inbetween casual and formal for effect. I think it's the subject matter or the details that seem normal to me but not to anyone else. People always get so shocked when I say anything that it makes me turn into an authority, which I HATE.. It's nice, I'm fine, whatever lol.
Now I want to talk about cringe. CRINGE is the show I watched a while ago on Tubi out of curiosity. It was so good, everything made sense and they upped the stakes! But you could tell they sold the bag. They love to make man and woman coworker fall in love even when they have no chemistry... then the unnecessary drama that gets drip fed over time, with them tilting the container until you're just suffocating on slop. It was so good, but I think that's why people watched House and skipped this one.
Last thing. Let's talk about evil things. I think so many people are evil in this world; I'm defining it as being malicious and choosing to be more malicious/keep being so on purpose for whatever gain (emotional or otherwise). I am not evil, but I like being snarky and teasing and get called cruel sometimes. But someone is very evil and I won't name names. Maybe you are evil, but I highly doubt it...
I'm sleepy and I lost my edge I think... evil would have been a sermon in my mind, but it's like a whisper. I'll go to bed, it's about 2am anyway.