It's a page 10% inspired by the old Pronouns.Page/related services out of nostalgia and for me to explain my gender-isms all at once because I'm tired of telling people.
I'm an American goth introvert who writes everything in prose before turning around and being your best pest and the most interesting person you can think of (negatively).
I only speak (American) English. I've been learning some Japanese and can identify a bunch of words and translate passages with dictionaries, but I won't be able to speak it with you.
As it is I don't feel like getting into terms or looking up terms like this is the pandemic era, so I'll describe it to the best of my ability. Another reason I made my own card instead of using some pronouns card... do people even look at those?
At my core, I am non-binary... I don't align with gender things and see non-binary as yet another gender option, but it's the best we have. I feel deeply masculine, always have, and have always been attracted to men through the lens of masculinity. I'm asexual because I can't see myself transitioning and can't love properly as a woman that feels ultimately fulfilling to me, so I just don't bother. I aligned with fictosexuality after the fact, when the term first came up on wherever I found it. I feel like reading BL and shipping characters in media like Adaman x Volo is gender affirming care lol.. I just don't know what you'd call someone who uses BL to live out their ideal life they never had... and that same person is like man I want to be a man... and then does nothing and dresses like the coming of the succubus siren in young alt girl form.
I think I will never transition, I should have been born as a man. Or, at the very least, whatever force made me could have done it correctly the first time, as I don't have any problems being a woman. Maybe I would have lived a different, maybe a better life, but my mind is convinced I have a penis when I don't and reacts so violently whenever I have to do something like natural period care... It's not even ME at that point, what do you mean my body is dysphoric about itself?? It made me shake and freak out and cry about things like tampons... tampons. They don't even do anything, but I can't use them! And what's worse is I, as in my conscious body that chooses to be alive and go places and make my own experience, doesn't even care. Why does my body scare itself, is it something I don't understand?
Aside from that, I do heavily like women as well, but it's very abstract feeling to me. I really like girls, but its more appreciative? But that's a lie, I love yuri, I love inserting myself into female narratives with Blaire and exploring that. I genuinely think I have some weird split between my actual feminine lifestyle and some internal mismatch where my body thinks I'm a man... When I was younger, I wanted to look more masculine and transition, but now it mellowed into a gender fluidity that is much more satisfying to me.
This all probably sounds so crazy, but I love being me and wearing these long skirts and my boots and living like I do.. then someone turns to talk to me and I'm a teasing loudmouth who loves to play and do tomboy kind of stuff. I deeply love who I am, so that's why I feel comfortable writing all this
Now as for traditional sexuality.. lets call it........... sapphic or pan, idk. I've identified as pan in the past, but I think women are unbeatable (sorry) so now I'm probably like... pan-sapphic lol
Cobie is preferred (clearly it's my default), but I also use Blaire. Anything else anyone told you is a lie. If you know what I went by in the past, then that is not applicable any longer.
Any is fine, but I die for masculinity, so who knows. I call myself a girl and a boy all the same, so nothing is incorrect.
I also have a deep love for thee/thou but no one uses them correctly so don't call me that. They're my secret preferred pronouns (and have been for years...) because I'm a loser who loves melodrama and playing roles. If you were to say it, I'd respond accordingly...
Do not refer to me with any kind of honorific, I will get you twice over. Ma'am is appropriate when it calls for it...
I don't even know what this part meant... if you want to compliment me then call me as you will. (also what... were some of the words on the other site? did they come from twt? they don't sound like tumblr words but they're a little embarrasing in this era)
I take kindly to calling me masculine language, but I make an exception for girl, you can call me a girl. Everyone seems to see that I'm a woman immediately online, even if I try to hide it. It's a little embarrasing but silly too, which is why I allow it.
You can also call me regal words... I loved being called things like Prince and Your Majesty and turning it into a grand, long-term roleplay with fancy language... things like that make me happy, but I don't know... Hell, I'm the one who's been larping as Lucifer on my sub-site...