Cobie - 20y
My name is COBIE, thank you for visiting Cobiesite. I'm not very interesting to talk to, so all I make does the heavy work of self-expression on my behalf.
At my core, I like to write about myself, humanity, and more interesting things. In my method, unless you start from absolute zero, at the common soul instead of from a place or an archetype, then a story won't go anywhere. In real life, there's the idea of if another person met even their enemy at another time, maybe they could get along.
For myself, I think I can be split into like.. happy nerd who knows or will learn everything, and introverted, moody artist who declines any sort of help so that they can find their own path. I think it serves me well, I have a mix of perspectives and a good, balanced outlook. Unfortunately it means I'm shit at connecting to anyone other than quirky nerds online.. all my friends who I would die for all act the same way. I secretly think it's because they're the only people who would accept some dark, MPDG reject lol
What's worse is they can't coexist at the same time and the nerd claws its way to the top because of ADHD, but I won't get into that.
I want to write about my life and my emotions, studying myself and who I see like the most fascinating subjects. I peoplewatch, too, and relate them to myself as part of the method. A lot of humans everywhere can be projected as that guy you saw or imagined as bound by some religious or physical restraint that shapes their behavior.
My goal in life and in all this is I want to understand what a person is, kind of less in an existential 'meaning of life' and more 'why are people so interesting together'. To be able to portray absolute realism in fantasy.
That's about the long of it. I also like anime sometimes and like to draw and listen to goth rock and vocaloid.
COBIESITE was created to house gothic fiction, then expanded to blog posts a la indieweb style, then got absorbed by a mission of darkness. The site was always coined as one dedicated to exploring absolute darkness, but I personally think it's lacking. Since I don't publish my one-shots and my character studies anywhere, I'm painfully aware the site lacks a bite to its bark, but all in time (?)
The aesthetic is always similar, but always shifting around. I thought I was satisfied with my last layout, but it didn't last 50 days before I abandoned it. I only keep what I like and what looks like what I want to see, which leads to such false flags. I think it would be easier on me if I set up 11ty or some other SSG, but I prefer to hand-make every update and detail for this place.
The darkness we see now, as I'm writing this, was a result of like two weeks worth of imagining and searching, alone. I abandoned my variables and manually edited each color and shadow as if I was painting through CSS. I think that's the only reason I was satisfied, in the end.
The fandom page and my love for talking passionately about different media is intended to pull away from the darkest parts of the site. I want to write about toxic dark romance and abuse, environments that are detrimental to the idea of life, tense sibling rivalries to be better than the other, the idea of losing everything, and suicide and the idea of the afterlife. I have so many ideas, I want to push them both to original fiction and fanfiction alike. So the worlds blend together.
At the same time, if I could have it like I want to portray it, I want this site to still be plastered with images of Madoka and the Quintet. Madoka knows that even though this world is horrible, we have to embrace and nourish the good things, which is a good idea of what I genuinely believe. But, then you adopt her image on a site like this, and all of a sudden it weakens the aesthetic and the messages, even though Madoka Magica is well in line with the type of content I adopt.
I think that means many people don't like marrying the light and the dark parts of themselves, but when you do, then the darkness is beautiful because it becomes bearable. Maybe this is what I'm chasing with COBIESITE?
To celebrate (aka i found out how to use the huge jquery library im calling every page) I made some semi-migraine friendly light mode by dynamically inverting the page through a filter.
I adopt the term ficto for myself, which means I am asexual and aromantic as hell, so I decide to have fun and be in a relationship with fictional characters. It's called yumeshipping in the popular culture now, so I adapted to that, but I interchangeably use selfship and yume together.
That being said! The characters that I like are my og ACNH family (Julian, Eddie (Ed), and Stella), Princess Peach and SOMETIMES Luigi, Arven from Pokemon S/V, and one of my OCs.
Also, apologies for the lack of art or so, I have no time to draw just yet + no pen to draw with. So you can have some images I just. have
The ACNH family is off-limits as it comes to my edited versions of them,
but, if there are some rare doubles then I'm all for sharing with their base
form. I'm platonic with Stella, anyway, and Eddie and Julian are brothers
who also love me.
With Peach, I don't care much, I have my own canon going on and so I accept
sharers and even would love to hear how other people just .... delete Mario
or whatever it is.
For Arven I am more protective of him just out of how adorable he is, so
let's call it.... selective sharing. Plus, I just logged into Pokemas for
like the first time in a year and Arven plopped into my hands for no reason,
so it's practically fated.
Finally, do not take my OCs, you can't have them lol
